After each and every doctors appointment I still cry.
(Usually its the minute I sit in my car,
but sometimes I can’t hold it back that long- like today.)
It’s a tension release and relief of what didn’t happen
that has happened in my past-
or could have happened in a split second,
and a deep felt thankfulness
that I am healthy in the present.
Once having cancer the effects of it
follows you around the rest of your life.
Unless you have experienced it,
you don’t understand.
But what a relief when you can leave
an appointment just like every other
That is really something to be
and hope for if you are not there quite yet!
But it’s okay to cry.